I wrote this poem----I don't know if it's a poem or just something----like one of my crap. Anyway, I just want to release what I'm feeling right now cause I can't really sleep. My mind just won't stop thinking matters 'bout him. Lately, I've been so bothered 'bout him. Here's the catch, I love him. I mean, I do really love him. As in love, L-O-V-E LOVE----and he loves me too. He's been waiting for me for almost 2years, and this December it's our 3rd year already, I think. Yeah, I know he's consistent. But, the thing is, I need to fix my life. I mean, I need to grow as a person. I need to deal with things concerning my life, myself, ME----cause if I'd start committing myself again at this point of time, I might end up hurting him "again" and dumping myself "again and again"----which I don't want to happen "again". So I've decided that I'll only commit myself to someone, particularly HIM, when everything's settled, fixed. I'm just bothered, cause you know, I really love this guy, yeah I know I'm still young----there are many guys around, but you see, I LOVE him, only Him. So that's why I don't want to let him go. I don't want to lose this guy. But I can't stop life; we can't stop life, only God can. So what if that time comes, wherein when I'm ready, suddenly, I would've just realize that he's gone. I wouldn't want to break down again. Oh well. That's life. I need to accept it----if it will make us a better person then, why not. Well I think I'll just accept it. Cause I don't really have any other choice. Well, I have 2 choices----LOVE or CAREER. Well, of course I need, I must and I will choose career. I'm still young. Love can wait----But me, growing old----that I can't stop. So I've made up my mind. I need to do this for my own future. Well I think I cleared my mind already. I know this is right. This will do well for the both of us. Anyway, I still believe in destiny----so if we are really meant for each other, we'll still meet at the end. :)